today has been… okay?

I mean, nothing bad has happened.  But around noon I started feeling… down?  Numb, which I’ve come to understand is me suppressing something.  I don’t know what it is.  Thinking about it, itself, is kind of hard.  Just… fuzzy.  I have a lot of nervous, twitchy energy that’s just as unfocused.  I think I feel sad, but I’m not sure why.  Maybe because I feel like I haven’t been advancing in my goals lately.  I’m just waiting for my appointment with the lawyer  for my name and gender change.  I really don’t like coasting, but there’s nothing more I can really actively do.  Especially when I’m trudging away at work.

Amyway…  yeah.  That’s where I’ve been floating lately.  I wish my motivations weren’t built around ideas of productivity; that might help.

Anyway, that’s all for the moment.


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