I mean, nothing bad has happened. But around noon I started feeling… down? Numb, which I’ve come to understand is me suppressing something. I don’t know what it is. Thinking about it, itself, is kind of hard. Just… fuzzy. I have a lot of nervous, twitchy energy that’s just as unfocused. I think I feel sad, but I’m not sure why. Maybe because I feel like I haven’t been advancing in my goals lately. I’m just waiting for my appointment with the lawyer for my name and gender change. I really don’t like coasting, but there’s nothing more I can really actively do. Especially when I’m trudging away at work.
Amyway… yeah. That’s where I’ve been floating lately. I wish my motivations weren’t built around ideas of productivity; that might help.
Anyway, that’s all for the moment.